>I really want to be in Santiago right now. In exactly four months from today I will be on a plane en route to Chile. FOUR MONTHS. That’s a long time. Some days it’s so easy for me to be patient, it especially helps if I have something to look forward to in the near future, like going out to dinner with friends, going to the fair, a birthday, etc. Right now though, I have nothing planned for the near future, except the banality of going to work 5 days a week. Heck, I have started to get excited about the schedule coming out for the next work week. Sad, right?
Anyway, I know I can make it. I just can’t believe that it will be 11 months since F. and I last saw each other. I sometimes wish that there was some way that I could have gone down and visited this summer, but now I’m convinced that it’s better to just go down and stay there.
I also have no idea what is going to happen, in terms of my job, my relationship with F., my living situation, how long I will stay, etc. Some details are hammered down, including my TEFL course, living with the G.’s, etc. But the long term future is a mystery. This is very strange for me, usually I am big on planning every last detail.
I am constantly telling my little cousin that patience is a virtue and good things come to those that wait. While I absolutely believe that to be true, I also believe that you have to make your own future. Right now it’s so frustrating that “making my own future” involves a lot of waiting right now.